So my last post was on June 6, 2010....lots have happened.  I do have a new blog but I'm just copying my most recent one and pasting it here.  Not sure if anyone else uses xanga nowadays.  

Listening to:  Carly Simon - In The Wee Small Hours(Sleepless in Seattle)

 Ever since the time change, feel like schedules and moods have been off.  But anyways, my Halloween turned our surprisingly well this year.  I was with some friends who went to a friend's apartment who was having a party.  I wasn't sure if my costume would catch attention but apparently it did.  I really didn't expect a lot of people asking about my costume...but a lot did.  The apartment lights were off, there was drinks all over the counter, the place was semi-packed but still comfortable to move through people.

 I explained to most people that glowing part was EL Wire (Electroluminescent wire) and that it ran on AA batteries.  the top was made of leggings.  I bought 2 from the store and just turned one of them into a top.  I think if I'm Tron girl next year, I'll try out a wig.  

 I still find it hard to believe that it's November already.  A lot of people feel happy/stressed about the holidays coming.  Many are happy because of presents.  Some for more work hours and crazy mode for black friday. But there are a few like me who sometimes feels a little sad.  Maybe just mopey(?) The holidays reminds me of family.  This will be the first holiday and birthday without my dad.  I downloaded some songs from the movie Sleepless in Seattle.  I watched it when I was younger.  I remember liking the movie although I wasn't sure why but I did.  That movie played a lot when my dad and I were in the family room.  Sometimes I wonder how long people recover after a lost loved one.  Does it take years? maybe never? 

 There was a blog that I was following that just recently ended.  It was one of the few blogs that I read frequently but I guess it inspired me to be more open about myself.  I know this won't help me recover but at least I can say my thoughts out loud.  I feel more cautious about what I say to others because I think about how they'll react.  

 This weekend I start my first day of work.  I met my future co-workers.  I hope I'll get along with all of them and do contribute as much as I could.  I might look for a second job as well because it looks like I'm just working weekends but maybe it will change.  

I feel sorry for my xanga because I am still neglecting it.  My only excuse is...Life happens.  I didn't win a million dollars or married someone rich; maybe one will happen someday.

Someone once asked me if I had a crazy story to tell.  It's one of those moments when someone asks you to tell a joke, and you can't think of any.  I had a few but I didn't know the guy well enough to tell him.  After several drinks, I've talked with my friend D and realized I don't exactly have a crazy story to tell people.  I've witnessed them.  It's something I don't mind either. I prefer being in the background and not center of attention.  Kinda like Hyde in That 70s Show.  He's not in the center but he's more on the side and witness things happen to Eric.   

Anyways, for the past several weeks I've been having trouble sleeping.  I feel that I'm slowly becoming an insomniac.  I hope that I won't because my mom just told me that I gotta find a job and start taking care of myself.  Maybe that's what's stressing me lately.  I mean it's not that I don't want to.  I've been taking care of my dad for so long that I've grown somewhat comfortable being at home.  I'm used to preparing food for my dad and brother.  My mom even found a doctor's clinic that accepts people with no health insurance and no job.  Sometimes I wonder if I'm losing social life too by not being around people so much.  I'm sure no one thinks about it because people at work see their coworkers all the time.  

Today, I saw two movies with my dad.  Both movies I didn't finish because he fell asleep.

 They're both old movies called Summertime and Rome Adventure.  It was a marathon on the TMC channel of movies that take place in Italy.  It wasn't one of the top places I wish to see.  But after hearing my dad talk about his traveling to Italy and the movies taking place was pretty convincing.  I think the more I stay home with my dad, the more old fashion taste I'm into.  My dad said that he took pictures when he traveled around Europe in 1978.  He definitely went traveling at the right time when it was cheap and didn't cost much at the time.  Both movies were alright.  It almost reminded me of the movie Under the Tuscan Sun where Diane Lane's character moves to Tuscany spontaneously.  I wonder how often does it happen to people.  It would be amazing to move to another country for a while and experience life there.  

I'm hoping that sometime in the summer I will find a job near home.  It probably won't be a job with my degree but it will keep me occupied and slowly save money.  I probably won't be traveling to anywhere exotic for a while.  My main thing is to find a job.    If only I could invent something as ridiculous as a slinky and make millions from it, I would.